Just My Endless Thoughts

It just came to mind
I'm just here doing my homework
the scholar that I am
I have just lost 2 friends within less than a week
One thinks that I tell his business
But isn't it equally my business as well because I was involved
Then again maybe not
He in the end told me I was dead to him forever
Right about now I honestly hope he keeps his promise
I don't need anyone around who can't seem to believe me over the average joe
Everyone knows I never lie
I guess he doesn't know me as well as I thought
then again he's not the person I thought he was
The other person is firmly upset that I called him fake
Over emotional I think but maybe that's just me
End of story we're no longer "tlkn" and for better words no longer speaking
I have no problem apologizing when I know I'm wrong but I can't apologize for telling the truth
Now my question to all my readers is were they really friends at all?
They don't believe what you say
And they think that you tell their business
And you question....Am I fake too??
I had spent so long fighting for friendships and/or relationships with these two people
And it just seems like now that I lost them....second thought
Now that we've gone our separate what was I honestly fighting for all this time???
That question seems to always find my thoughts
It just stops me in my tracks every time

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M O N N ii~ M O N Y E E

To My R.T.C

Post- Monnii Monyee
Well this just crossed my mind
For a while i have been talking to a certain guy
He was ma best friend
We started to like each other more
Later down the line we had planned to eventually date
Im going to guess that God didn't want us to be together
Or it was just fate
Because i start to like new people
We were fighting to be together and it just wasn't working
We argue all the time and i feel like he's smothering me
End of story today we kinda had an arguement and Im guessing that we're not even friends
I feel kinda bad because he was ma best friend
But then again I feel like everything wasn't just my fault
anyway i guess the only reason im telling this because
I feel kind of bad that I've lost my best friend
The question is was he a really friend these past 12 months
Then again I don't regret what I've said
You can't regret something you once loved right???
Let me know what I should do

On My Mind....Monnii~Monyee's Mind

Post- Monnii Monyee

Just came across my mind
Last night when i was textn the Dupree aka C.E.O
she told me that she was nervous about this poetry thing
She had to do spoken word infront of the whole school
and she was nervous
Me being Monnii~Monyee i laughed at her
Then she told me I had my name on the list as well
Then I got nervous
I was trying to figure out what my spoken word would be
then the idea hit me
(drum roll please)
Me and Dupree should do a joined poem
l0l so Dupree...being the prolific writer she is said we should do her poem
Blinding Light
Of course the poem being excellent already
She said I should write to it
And we could perform my part and her's togetha
When i first read the poem I thought it was impossible to write to her stuff
Clearly I think her work is superb
So here I am thinkn
How am I going to write to her work
I guess this where the PROLIFIC part of me comes into the equation
Now wish me the best of luck
B.C writing a joint piece with Dupree is gonna be a hard one
Wish me luck
IM GOING TO NEED IT

On My Mind....D U P R E E 'S MIND

Post-D U P R E E.

Just Came across the mind:

I was In lunch yesterday,at the table with my killas,

we had Chinese food day for lunch

and I opened my fortune cookie and it said .......

"BE PATIENT. GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT"

.....RIGGHHHTTTT!

and the lucky numbers were

(drum role please)
#10,4,21,28,33

(they mean nothing to me)

HA YEA MONNII MONYEE WONDERS COULD IT

BE A SIGN

(She loves to analyze eveything )

If good things come to those who wait, why does it take soooo

long. I can handle some anticipation but when it last forever

I think it will never come.

But then again I guess only good things do happen to those

who are willing to wait .

So Lord if this IS a sign "I'M WAITING"

Ryan Leslie

Post- Monnii Monyee
Ryan Leslie
this dude knows music
dude is crucial
albums in stores 2.10.09