Saturday, March 28, 2009

Dedicated to you

your silence brings my unstoppable thoughts to a screeching halt your absence shakes my confidence
and just ruins every amount of energy i used to keep being mad @ you

my longness for you never stops
and sometimes causes dry spells of rhymatic rhymes

and for the first time
makes me want to lay down my instrument for good

and yes i know there's no way to change
what happened between us
i cant change how i felt
i just felt like i was misunderstood

trust me i never meant to go to bed mad at you
and i hope you feel the same

but the sand man brought out his biggest grains and just sprinkled them over my eyes
truth be told i was just tired of those people who stood behind lies
and gallantly smiled in my face

and danced around me with masks unsure of how i would react
honestly you could have told me anything
and you know that

yes I've heard you've moved on
and trust me i truly do regret letting you go

i guess we're a lot different from kyle and maxine
this is real life not a TV show
at times i felt we wouldn't make it, yes i had my doubts
then other times I was totally sure
much to dismay that doesn't really matter anymore
wishing i had father time on my side
and hoping these seasons wouldn't pass so quickly in front of our eyes
yes i know there's no way i can rewind time
and speak loudly and just tell you how i felt
you should have known
if you know me so well
its been told I use my words as pick up lines
which isn't true at this particular time
i know life does revolve around me
and the sun doesn't rise and set on my ass

yes i know the love & basketball line
and yes i know its time things have changed
because as a circle does
its neither ends or begins
we've both managed to step out of the circle
and you've found your own way to move on
as it maybe true your absence kills me and frequently dries up my prolific words
and just makes me realize that
maybe our love/ hate relationship was my inspiration after all

and just maybe i shouldn't have left my wandering thoughts to linger
with no explanation

and maybe we could have had it all
this situation truly makes me want to put to rest my instrument,
sheet music, and all its notes

because without you the music doesn't sound as sweet
and the words "I'm sorry" just seem to be
choked up in our throats

So after all we've been through
I think you finally deserve a piece of my spoken word
you can put your name to

So this one is
dedicated to you

Post- Monyee

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