TEMPORARY HAPPINESS

By D U P R E E .

Never will I ever Fall in Love with the Art of Temporary Happiness

Those words indicate something

They all surface from my canvas the words that I verbalize

Or emerge from a drawing that releases everything that I keep bottled in

I use this poem to create my art to release my struggles

And I recite these words to create wings and set free my troubles

And I can’t release my struggles if I can’t find my freedom

My freedom is trapped in this image

And I can’t create this image

because you left to find your freedom

I’m tryna to make the perfect picture, freely

Creating art is easier than life is and there is still sketching to be done

No way will I let my pain make me give up and get rid

In no way am I complete. I still have a far way to go,

And life difficult like me blinking without my eyelids

As I create my piece, I refuse to feel this pain that I have for you,

It rest deep in my soul

But it keeps hoping to connect with you

So my eagerness advised to me to create the perfect picture and when I did reconnect it came up with a blank canvas

If I would have known that your existence would have been temporary

I would have made more time to make more meaningful memories

And I tried

I attempted to illustrate you then paint you but my mind came up with distant memories

That made it hard for me to visualize you

This pain of you being gone, stops my words from forming wings and get through to you
My words resist to paint you cuz now your gone and breathless
you were my air u left me feeling like im lifeless
you passed on ......and left me airless
and this deep hurt makes me my tears
to the point that i cry till im that im breathless
and i have to create this piece so i can accept that your gone and regain my concious

I And I hate this feeling because you’re only aloud to exist in my vague memories

If I reminisced it became heartrending,

My hands can paint new memories, cuz I can’t even illustrate without thinking of you being gone from me

And I hate these tears because I can’t illustrate you right next to me

I can’t dream of you because I’m dreaming of you un-silently

And I’m trying to reach out to you but you’re beyond capacity

I’m full of un-forgiviness

Cuz he took you so quickly away from me

So I create the art of Temporary Happiness because no more are you telling jokes right next to me

So I tried to make a great effort to move on, forgive, and finally create your masterpiece

Because no more can I stand that I’m hiding behind “I’m fine existing,

Without you.”

I’m happy when I’m around them for now, but later I will continue to be angry not being near your existence

So I will create the piece
“ Never will I ever fall in Love with the art of Temporary Happiness”.