Dear" TILL MY LAST BREATH I KNOW U KNOW I LOVE YOU ANOTHER LIFETIME IM HOLDING YOU"

It's crazy how they say gone on , move
on, I don't know about you but it is to hard for me.
Crazy how u were her making funny jokes one day
not even realizing they were funny. They way you just look at me
and it seemed like you Knew me this how time. Wishing i could go just back in
time wanting to no more about you. Knowing a lot more then what
my mother has told me. Knowing you for myself and developing my own relationship.
I know we developed another relationship maybe in another time. Together we
both were best friends. The Lord has me feeling something. Something that makes me
hurt every time I'm thought, heard, or did see of you when you were here. When
you both looked at us and myself at certain times alone I saw something,
I felt what you felt. I know your sorry. I felt everything when you
left. You wanted to say something but you couldn't.
I know what you had to say. I got your message.I know its all there. She hurts i know
but her children remind her things have to happen the way they did so she
can be strong for her kidS. She shows no weakness in front of us, I believe none at all.
I just want to let her rest and let her non that we can be strong for her.
She doesn't have to bottle it n and use only her strength from showing the pain she feels.
When You left YOU LEFT something beyond. A love that will last forever a future waiting to blossom. Dreams waiting to come true. Lives that need some saving.
I hurt i cry just like her in a different. I'm not scared of anything the strength that i
received from my mother. But i think i do have some fear of never allowing my self
to know you. I know you both read this in heaven, you made no mistakes
Everything that was meant was. What happened made me who i am and will hope to
be. MY life cries my soul hurts my heart blocks, I'm don't want to be hurt.
Sacred of it never want to be down. I miss you both want you back in my life.
Get mad when my head says the Lord took you away to soon. I cry and i know she cries
could be almost every night. Learning from what happened in want take the chance from
learning for experience. " WILL ALWAYS LOVE,WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART,WILL NEVER GET OVER THAT UR GONE,WILL NEVER FORGET, I'M HOLDING SO STAY WITH ME,TRYING GIVE IT MORE OF MY TIME,TRYING TO STAY TRUE,I'M NOT GOING TO DIE INSIDE,I'M HOLDING UP . As i write this i do develop a tear. Pain is still there
but won't let it take over me . I cry which helps me cleanse. Cleanse and remind me your looking
over us. You are my angels. I love and will never forget. I KNOW you are
good and she ill be all right. We're her angels and she knows it. Because of you
I know I love I teach I don't experience I love I gain strength. You truly have an impact on my life a positive one that i will never forget . MY Tears seem sad sometimes
but i cry because you make on my heart that i KNOW IS IN HEALING

TILL MY LAST BREATH I KNOW I LOVE YOU,

ANOTHER LIFETIME IM HOLDING YOU"

- KNOW LOVE TEACH SHOW EYES IT WAS ALL THERE
IT FROM YOU AND WE KNOW

WE CELEBRATE BIRTHDAY TOGETHER ALWAYS IN

REMEBRANCE UNTIL ONE DAY WE CAN TOGETHER

DAYS ARE OUR DAY
LOVE,

LOVE

Solange- The other night You -???- T.O.N.Y

Kid Cudi's Apearance In Solange's T.O.N.Y Video.

Drawn To U

You
I believe I was drawn to you
The way I think
The way you feel
They way we both feel
It created a vision in my mind
Something more that couldn't be expressed
On a plane paper and blue lines
Turned from a poetic composition to a sketch
That I drew really quickly, not wasting time
Not missing a detail illustrating
Your hair, nose, cheeks, eyes and lips
Even illustrating your eyes when you squint
Embracing the feeling and drawing everything that I sense
Drawing you giving you all my self
Wondering if love should make sense
I pencil you in Trusting it won't be the wrong decision
Every detail has a significant meaning
And scared to have high expectations of you and have to erase
I pencil you in; I only have an idea of you
An interest I feel in my heart
That I feel I can trust you; I draw the sketch to a close
Completeing it and realizing you are a work of art
I seize the moment of this precise feeling
Knowing that art shows me that there is some truth
That it can cause a heart some healing
The sketch is complete and move on to the final drawing
I draw you with more patience taking my time
Not rushing into anything because this masterpiece is the truth this time
No distractions all concentration, no errors
But I do have my eraser close by, hesitant of giving my whole heart away
Trust is the main issue
you being strong for me I know that feeling should be gone one day
Bringing your face out, and your expressions
Turning the drawing into a painting that I could put on canvas
Through vivid colors and creativity that could speak its own lectures
Im drawn to you, developing a powerful feeling even a likeness
Beginning to paint I recreate you that's felt in my heart and mind
Painting what I see, what I feel, what I want,
Through this poem that I verbalize
I hope the audience can imagine this image of you
This metaphor of you being my masterpiece
This canvas talks on its own, your portrait is complete and not blinded
I wonder if you know who You are and if you know your a showpiece
I painted you on canvas so now I toss the eraser
The audience feels what I feel they are my witness
Is your picture on my canvas, the work of art that sits in for of us?
This is my way of telling you that my heart is ready and Im
Fearless

All Because

Woke up like 8am this morning
Had to get ready for this wack, however
helpful college program. Completed some more of
those college essays. Spent time with
the killas Deonah, Pat, Ciara, and Chanae.
The program went all right, but couldn't wait to get back to
the casa and enjoy the chocolate cake that my little brother
made the night before. I def got into that. Recieved texts
about a party tonight. Comtemplating whether i should go
or not. Reasons

1). Have to find something to wear(choosin the right jiggy
will take some time).
2). Who will be there not tyna be @ a wack party
3). If the party isn't wack and is crazy gotta remember to stay
humble .
4). Who is going to go with me(what am i talking bout i know
they going).
5). College open house Tomorrow early in the morning because
I know I am not going to wake up.


Not many reasons right.I will figure it out though.
Not really desprate to go, but my killa wants
to be in there in I don't want to let her go by herself
since i did all the other times. But see im thinking of you.

New Jiggy J Black

J Black also known as Jerry Blackwell a rapper from Greensboro, North Carolina.

My older brother put me on him a while ago. Ihave to say he is sending a message and I can't get enough. Put him on my killas and they listen to him to.

If you ready for something different and a positive message you need to have it and

get on that new school grove like he said

Album Reality Check

J Black.

Mad TV -Can I Have Your Number?

"Have A Laughie"

If Mos Def - President

U R your Mothers Daughter

I had this 2 myself the bottling up wasn't doing anything for me

Things are going so weird. changing as my life goes on.

MoM n I used to best friends, I can probably say its still that way

but its a friendship that has changed dramatically. We fuss at each other a lot. I try not to

say much but I'm am a very argumentative person. My dad

gets in it and says u r Ur mothers daughter. I guess he

is referring to that we are the same person. My mom and myself will

not admit that might be true. I can say we are both stubborn

and just dont like to talk about them. Now i feel like I HAVE 2.

I'm just counting the days until I'm out of the house. College is what I'm looking towards

by myself and on my own. Mom, I still love her she is my friend, but

things are different then before and

confused on how we could deal with them. My dad says to much of the same person

that's why we bang heads. It sounds like sometimes she doesn't really want me there. Probably just saying that because she wants to hurt me.

"Go live with ur grandmother or something she could use your help."

But if I'm just like her and if she realized that like my Pops did. She would no that I don't hurt easily. I'm strong like her feeding off of the hard times and dramatic situations.

i RESPOND WITH

" they don't have hockey n Philly"

I did go kinda hard with that, I no her heart now hurts. I will admit i was roofless with that 1. She acts like we me and my sis dont care that she came to like 3 hockey games, 2 b ball games, no track meets my going on 4 years of high school. Yea we care that's what we love its our life she responds with

"Yall can careless U NO IT DIDN'T MATTER and laughs t off."

she doesn't realize that it did. We want the people

we love to be apart of everything we love.I hope she doesn't realize that when it's to late.

So i apologize for the hurtful things i say , I love you

your still my best friend. I know things wil get better when we realize

we are the same person if we like it or not. Things will change.