I had this 2 myself the bottling up wasn't doing anything for me
Things are going so weird. changing as my life goes on.
MoM n I used to best friends, I can probably say its still that way
but its a friendship that has changed dramatically. We fuss at each other a lot. I try not to
say much but I'm am a very argumentative person. My dad
gets in it and says u r Ur mothers daughter. I guess he
is referring to that we are the same person. My mom and myself will
not admit that might be true. I can say we are both stubborn
and just dont like to talk about them. Now i feel like I HAVE 2.
I'm just counting the days until I'm out of the house. College is what I'm looking towards
by myself and on my own. Mom, I still love her she is my friend, but
things are different then before and
confused on how we could deal with them. My dad says to much of the same person
that's why we bang heads. It sounds like sometimes she doesn't really want me there. Probably just saying that because she wants to hurt me.
"Go live with ur grandmother or something she could use your help."
But if I'm just like her and if she realized that like my Pops did. She would no that I don't hurt easily. I'm strong like her feeding off of the hard times and dramatic situations.
i RESPOND WITH
" they don't have hockey n Philly"
I did go kinda hard with that, I no her heart now hurts. I will admit i was roofless with that 1. She acts like we me and my sis dont care that she came to like 3 hockey games, 2 b ball games, no track meets my going on 4 years of high school. Yea we care that's what we love its our life she responds with
"Yall can careless U NO IT DIDN'T MATTER and laughs t off."
she doesn't realize that it did. We want the people
we love to be apart of everything we love.I hope she doesn't realize that when it's to late.
So i apologize for the hurtful things i say , I love you
your still my best friend. I know things wil get better when we realize
we are the same person if we like it or not. Things will change.
