Post- D U P R E E .
Poem
So I heard a knock knocking at my door
And it was him standing in my existence meeting me at my front door
He said modify your life
Don’t delay the rest of your life for a reservation, Life is not reserved
You want to make it to the promise land
Listen to his declaration and you will be served
So at the end of his meal, bump being hungry He made me full
He brought to my attention that I’m dying inside and it’s painful
I have to nurture myself before I can nurture the world
He has a renovation for me already in store,
And I’m trying to be different then before
The introduction of my alteration, lead me to a book with wisdom in it
(The Bible)
Romans 12:8
Reads to direct my fate
“I beseech you therefore brethren by the mercies of God,
that you present your bodies a living sacrifice holy, acceptable to God
which is your reasonable services and don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing
of your mind that you may prove what’s good and acceptable to God?” ....
Yea that’s his word
And dang that felt good
It advised me I’m making a transformation through restoration
So I’m making over for goodI’m reinstating my life,
so if he ask me for desert
I’m taking it, he supplying
Cake so I’m putting the knife to it
So now that we're filled with the food of him
no itis…..the auditoriums silent ....
I can hear a pen drop in it ....
to present our Book of knowledge
With the inspiration of him in it
Chapter 1-5
I am hunted by my past A whole lot is hitting me all at once and I can’t dodge it
It coming at me to fast
No breaks on my past I’m tryna slow it down but I can’t pause it
I’m coming up with all these ridiculous reasons on why
I should just keep doing what I’m doing and ignore it
All my emotions are fighting inside of me
And there ain’t no refs calling calls to resolve it
Emotions all bottled up inside of me
I have to shatter it But have never been confident on how to battle them and trash them
My emotions and my character are avoiding each other like the wrong side of a magnet So they are all bottled up in me and I’m trying to renew myself and recycle it
I have to smash it
Tolerate whatever it is to cause brokenness and heal me and then regain my confidence
But I’m still sleeping on it, allowing my pride and my integrity to hide it
Eventually everything inside of me will come out of me and I won’t be able to control it
I’m allowing the world to change me and affect my behavior
My actions my manners then lead to a reaction
That could ultimately lead to a consequence
That I’m refusing to experience to it ....
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Chapter 6-10
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This enemy that is trying to corrupt me is an enemy that lives beneath me ....
That is trying to disable that final feeling of love… without it … makes my tears....
I struggle to see because there filled with worn out hopes that create my fears,....
Dry emotions, mistreated love, ....
And a un-determination for life that I’m going to damage now so it doesn’t continue on for years....
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..Chapter 11-12..
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I’m retrieving a light on which way to go ....
And can’t wait to long ....
I’m using my bitter grief to complete my joy ....
Cuz it’s hard, I’m tryna make this change sooner than later ....
So I can give my enemy back his meal ....
I’m taking my dad’s meal cuz he serving it on a silver platter and its real ....
My enemy was trying to destroy my last couple feelings of love ....
I’m becoming free and deep hurt ....
Takes away from my-self worth ....
And I’m ready to determine my own success and rise above....
My obstacles will not determine achievements....
Achievements lead from me managing myself and not the environment....
I’m staying humble to everything around....
The world can distract ...my pride....
It’s not bad to have it but sometimes pride leads to a fall ....
And he told me I was dying inside ....
I made a new friend and I hope the other realizes he is not my ally....
I found purity, optimism, gladness, and life ....
No more accepting the low life ....
I’m done making that mistake I’m concentrating on my rise ....
I’m reaching for the high life ....
The New Beginning
THERE IS NO END
