By D U P R E E .
Never will I ever Fall in Love with the Art of Temporary Happiness
Those words indicate something
They all surface from my canvas the words that I verbalize
Or emerge from a drawing that releases everything that I keep bottled in
I use this poem to create my art to release my struggles
And I recite these words to create wings and set free my troubles
And I can’t release my struggles if I can’t find my freedom
My freedom is trapped in this image
And I can’t create this image
because you left to find your freedom
I’m tryna to make the perfect picture, freely
Creating art is easier than life is and there is still sketching to be done
No way will I let my pain make me give up and get rid
In no way am I complete. I still have a far way to go,
And life difficult like me blinking without my eyelids
As I create my piece, I refuse to feel this pain that I have for you,It rest deep in my soul
But it keeps hoping to connect with you
So my eagerness advised to me to create the perfect picture and when I did reconnect it came up with a blank canvas
If I would have known that your existence would have been temporary
I would have made more time to make more meaningful memories
And I tried
I attempted to illustrate you then paint you but my mind came up with distant memories
That made it hard for me to visualize you
This pain of you being gone, stops my words from forming wings and get through to you
My words resist to paint you cuz now your gone and breathless
you were my air u left me feeling like im lifeless
you passed on ......and left me airless
and this deep hurt makes me my tears
to the point that i cry till im that im breathless
and i have to create this piece so i can accept that your gone and regain my concious
I And I hate this feeling because you’re only aloud to exist in my vague memories
If I reminisced it became heartrending,
My hands can paint new memories, cuz I can’t even illustrate without thinking of you being gone from me
And I hate these tears because I can’t illustrate you right next to me
I can’t dream of you because I’m dreaming of you un-silently
And I’m trying to reach out to you but you’re beyond capacity
I’m full of un-forgiviness
Cuz he took you so quickly away from me
So I create the art of Temporary Happiness because no more are you telling jokes right next to me
So I tried to make a great effort to move on, forgive, and finally create your masterpiece
Because no more can I stand that I’m hiding behind “I’m fine existing,
Without you.”
I’m happy when I’m around them for now, but later I will continue to be angry not being near your existence
So I will create the piece
“ Never will I ever fall in Love with the art of Temporary Happiness”.
