Short Amount of Time

by j. holliday

I just can not seem to figure out the reasons for why I feel this way.

I wanted to trust you but I could not open my heart and when I finally did you just walked away.

The tears in my eyes so stealthily grab hold of my throat detering me from telling you don't go.

Feelings of anxiety opress me because what we could have had and what we could have been we will never know.

I look to others to fill the missing piece you took when you walked out of my life.

I just can not fathom how someone you love and cherish so dearly could so blatantly break your heart.

Reminiscing on how you gave me an effervescent glow everytime you whispered those three words in my ear.

But now since you walked out of my life it is only a thing of the past, just a memory.

I've asked myself time and time again, How can life go on without the one I love?

How could I have ever been so wrong?

Is this what love is all about?

You give your heart to someone just for them to tear it apart.

I thought you were the man that was supposed to care for me.

The man that was supposed to love me forever.

But forever was such a short amount of time.

haha my project

In 1867, a great inventor and entrepreneur was born in the native Louisiana. Going by the name of Madam C.J. Walker this inventor was born Sarah Breedlove; to former slaves, Owen and Minerva Breedlove on a plantation with four brothers and one older sister joining her as well. She was orphaned by the age eleven because yellow fever had decimated half of the population; Walker was left surviving with her sister while working on the cotton fields of Delta and Vicksburg, Mississippi. By age 14 she was married to Moses McWilliams, she only married to escape the physical abuse of her brother Jesse Powell. Her only daughter was born in 1885 and her husband died two years later she traveled to St. Louis to accompany her brothers and worked as a laundrywoman and saved enough money to educate her daughter and became involved with the National Association of Colored Women.

D U P R E E.

Have my on Personal Blog

http://www.crushxout.blogspot.com/

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TEMPORARY HAPPINESS

By D U P R E E .

Never will I ever Fall in Love with the Art of Temporary Happiness

Those words indicate something

They all surface from my canvas the words that I verbalize

Or emerge from a drawing that releases everything that I keep bottled in

I use this poem to create my art to release my struggles

And I recite these words to create wings and set free my troubles

And I can’t release my struggles if I can’t find my freedom

My freedom is trapped in this image

And I can’t create this image

because you left to find your freedom

I’m tryna to make the perfect picture, freely

Creating art is easier than life is and there is still sketching to be done

No way will I let my pain make me give up and get rid

In no way am I complete. I still have a far way to go,

And life difficult like me blinking without my eyelids

As I create my piece, I refuse to feel this pain that I have for you,

It rest deep in my soul

But it keeps hoping to connect with you

So my eagerness advised to me to create the perfect picture and when I did reconnect it came up with a blank canvas

If I would have known that your existence would have been temporary

I would have made more time to make more meaningful memories

And I tried

I attempted to illustrate you then paint you but my mind came up with distant memories

That made it hard for me to visualize you

This pain of you being gone, stops my words from forming wings and get through to you
My words resist to paint you cuz now your gone and breathless
you were my air u left me feeling like im lifeless
you passed on ......and left me airless
and this deep hurt makes me my tears
to the point that i cry till im that im breathless
and i have to create this piece so i can accept that your gone and regain my concious

I And I hate this feeling because you’re only aloud to exist in my vague memories

If I reminisced it became heartrending,

My hands can paint new memories, cuz I can’t even illustrate without thinking of you being gone from me

And I hate these tears because I can’t illustrate you right next to me

I can’t dream of you because I’m dreaming of you un-silently

And I’m trying to reach out to you but you’re beyond capacity

I’m full of un-forgiviness

Cuz he took you so quickly away from me

So I create the art of Temporary Happiness because no more are you telling jokes right next to me

So I tried to make a great effort to move on, forgive, and finally create your masterpiece

Because no more can I stand that I’m hiding behind “I’m fine existing,

Without you.”

I’m happy when I’m around them for now, but later I will continue to be angry not being near your existence

So I will create the piece
“ Never will I ever fall in Love with the art of Temporary Happiness”.

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POETIC HARMONY

Post-Monyee

Newest Group on their rise to fame.
Poetic Harmony. A trio of 3 Singers.
Antione McGee, Ishanna Rodriguez & Darius Greene
One of the lastest R&B groups coming out of Lindenwold, NJ
They have made special appearances at Lindenwold High School, NJPAC, etc.
Their next performance will be opening for Ms. Keri Hilson.

Changed My Life - Poetic Harmony

RTC INTRO...FINALLY!!

Post~Monyee

l0l finally i put the video on youtube
took me foreva i guess i was just to lazy to do it
yea it's basically introducing some of the members..
even though like 3 of them are missing..
maybe 4 idk
ANYWAYS..
like to hear it here it go!

Brave New Voices

Post ~ Monyee

What we've all been waiting for right ladies.
yes, nijaboy we all kno u kno dis jawn by heart.
&+ janae u got dis jawn on ya page. we kno!
(they're both geeks l0l)
interruption b4 her jawn...
I LOVE B. YUNG FROM BNV!!(shut up dupree)
so here ya go.
that girl by Alysia( Philly team of Brave New Voices)
Fear Philly! Fear Philly!
enjoy.

Peep it

Post- D U P R E E.

Priscilla Ranea -Drake's Best I Ever Had.

But made it hers... yes it's Acoustic ...

Whoa

Real Neo-Soul Kiddo!

Foreign Exchange ft Darien Brockington -
Take of the Blues

Post Monyee

One of the greatest songs that I've ever heard in my life. I write to this song every time. Ne thing that I've written that its crazy excellent I was writing to this song. Check it out.

The Foreign Exchange feat. Darien Brockington - "Take Off The Blues" from The Foreign Exchange on Vimeo.

De.Que

Mike Jaggerr

DDDDDOOOOPPPPEEE!

More to come

SOOO...

Myself, my Partners..Madookie aka Maderia

Nija be n art class...doin art

well I try if they not telling me all their business from what happened the day

before...I sometimes actually get work done....Sometimes.

We have like art names nick names whatever it is

to no what and whos pieces is what

Madookie aka MAderia- Art name - Blue or Pinky thats what i call her

Nija- Art Name- We stayed with NijaBoyy

Deneen aka D U P R E E. - Art Name - Dee Dee Dupree

My Handy Art book....

Goes everywhere with me if I get inspired....

In this drawing we had to do called a grid drawing

I finally have completed work i can put in the Art show ....

No Trace Im better than that Killa...

No Title

Post- D U P R E E .
Poem

So I heard a knock knocking at my door
And it was him standing in my existence meeting me at my front door
He said modify your life
Don’t delay the rest of your life for a reservation, Life is not reserved
You want to make it to the promise land
Listen to his declaration and you will be served
So at the end of his meal, bump being hungry He made me full
He brought to my attention that I’m dying inside and it’s painful
I have to nurture myself before I can nurture the world
He has a renovation for me already in store,
And I’m trying to be different then before
The introduction of my alteration, lead me to a book with wisdom in it
(The Bible)
Romans 12:8
Reads to direct my fate
“I beseech you therefore brethren by the mercies of God,
that you present your bodies a living sacrifice holy, acceptable to God
which is your reasonable services and don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing
of your mind that you may prove what’s good and acceptable to God?” ....
Yea that’s his word
And dang that felt good
It advised me I’m making a transformation through restoration
So I’m making over for goodI’m reinstating my life,
so if he ask me for desert
I’m taking it, he supplying
Cake so I’m putting the knife to it
So now that we're filled with the food of him
no itis…..the auditoriums silent ....
I can hear a pen drop in it ....
to present our Book of knowledge
With the inspiration of him in it

Chapter 1-5

I am hunted by my past A whole lot is hitting me all at once and I can’t dodge it
It coming at me to fast
No breaks on my past I’m tryna slow it down but I can’t pause it
I’m coming up with all these ridiculous reasons on why
I should just keep doing what I’m doing and ignore it
All my emotions are fighting inside of me
And there ain’t no refs calling calls to resolve it
Emotions all bottled up inside of me
I have to shatter it But have never been confident on how to battle them and trash them
My emotions and my character are avoiding each other like the wrong side of a magnet So they are all bottled up in me and I’m trying to renew myself and recycle it
I have to smash it
Tolerate whatever it is to cause brokenness and heal me and then regain my confidence
But I’m still sleeping on it, allowing my pride and my integrity to hide it
Eventually everything inside of me will come out of me and I won’t be able to control it
I’m allowing the world to change me and affect my behavior
My actions my manners then lead to a reaction
That could ultimately lead to a consequence
That I’m refusing to experience to it ....
.. ..
Chapter 6-10
.. ..
This enemy that is trying to corrupt me is an enemy that lives beneath me ....
That is trying to disable that final feeling of love… without it … makes my tears....
I struggle to see because there filled with worn out hopes that create my fears,....
Dry emotions, mistreated love, ....
And a un-determination for life that I’m going to damage now so it doesn’t continue on for years....
.. ..
..Chapter 11-12..
...
I’m retrieving a light on which way to go ....
And can’t wait to long ....
I’m using my bitter grief to complete my joy ....
Cuz it’s hard, I’m tryna make this change sooner than later ....
So I can give my enemy back his meal ....
I’m taking my dad’s meal cuz he serving it on a silver platter and its real ....
My enemy was trying to destroy my last couple feelings of love ....
I’m becoming free and deep hurt ....
Takes away from my-self worth ....
And I’m ready to determine my own success and rise above....
My obstacles will not determine achievements....
Achievements lead from me managing myself and not the environment....
I’m staying humble to everything around....
The world can distract ...my pride....
It’s not bad to have it but sometimes pride leads to a fall ....
And he told me I was dying inside ....
I made a new friend and I hope the other realizes he is not my ally....
I found purity, optimism, gladness, and life ....
No more accepting the low life ....
I’m done making that mistake I’m concentrating on my rise ....
I’m reaching for the high life ....

The New Beginning
THERE IS NO END

The Ecstatic

Post - Dupree

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Album Available - In Spring 2009

Flowers

Mos Def - Flowers - The Ecstatic avail 6/9/09

Words

Mos Def - Words - The Ecstatic - in stores Spring 2009

ESSENCE OF THE MIND

Post ~Monyee

Background: O tayy Happy Easter to everyone! l0l I just got my poem I wrote for English class back. Yes that is the one thing I can do. I can write a poem. It took me about 2 hours, not too much time right? I have no clue what this piece is originally about so its kinda random. This piece was written just to complete the guidelines of using imagery and personification. Yea its kinda short too. Like to hear it here it go!

Essence of the mind
My thoughts grab me and remind me all tribulations can be overcome
Maybe time itself allows me to continue forward
Notifications of time reprise past emotions and regenerate lost hope
The air whistles soft remembrances of joyous times
Just for once allow time to rewind itself
Allow my thoughts to firmly grip my self conscious mind
and slowly create bravery and confidence
Yet let my eyes grab the blank lines covered with eraser marks
Provide my monstrous hunger for blank verses with enough energy
to devour these empty spaces left uneaten on my canvas
Make time my best friend with never ending anecdotes
BODY OF THE ESSENCE
Wherever you go your mind graciously follows in your footsteps
Eventually your adolescent mind will mature and stride long enough
to step out from your unforeseen shadow
Let my words hold your hands and initiate peace between body and mind
Just know that all of this is of the essence of the mind.